Umm... Relationship week

Wacky Tacky Friday!

Magic Sands Beach

Me and my friend Eunhee being really cool

So this weeks lectures were on relationships. The lectures were really good and I did learn a lot but I feel like I don't really want to discuss the lectures, but would rather just talk about how my week has been going. I feel that this week I have been a bit attacked in the way that I have felt a bit discouraged. I am not even really sure where to pin point it but that shows right there that there isn't even a real issue. I know for a fact that I am growing closer to God here and really gaining a hunger to know Him more, and to the devil that is something scary. He wants us to be as inactive as possible, and for me, he knows that if I feel not worthy or unable to accomplish anything or to feel like I am not needed then I will become inactive. I am definitely and introverted person and it takes me a while to warm up to people and let them get to know me. For this reason it has been a challenge here continually meeting new people and having to get to know them closely. I get uncomfortable and somewhat shut down on who I really am. I definitely feel a lot more comfortable here as I have become really close with my roommates (they are actually the best roommates ever, I feel very at home in my room) and I have gotten to know many of my classmates, but it is getting to the point where I have to leave everyone I have become close with and go on outreach. I love my outreach group very much, but again I don't really know them that well and I have to step out of my comfort zone once again and open up and get to know them and let them get to know me. I really like my comfort zone, but I know that God is working on me in this area. My whole life has been a big comfort bubble and I know that in order to fully follow him, I have to give up my right on being comfortable. I don't necessarily like it but I know it is right. I definitely don't want the devil to succeed in making me inactive and feel like I can't accomplish things because I am 'quiet' or let him lead me to believe I don't belong where I am, because I absolutely know that's a lie. I want to become the vessel that God has made me to be. I really don't like not knowing anything about my future, but again I believe that is something that God is working on in me. I believe He wants me to learn to depend and trust in Him even if it I don't feel like I want to or don't feel His presence. He is always there and I know I just have to remind myself that because the devil will definitely try and distract me and discourage me.
Prayer requests: I would like prayer on staying positive during times where I feel like God is not near and I don't feel Him, and really become quick to remember that He is ALWAYS there and that there will be times of trials and testing of my faith (James 1: 2-4 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.). Also I would like prayer of becoming more confident in myself and who God made me to be so that I don't feel so shy or whatever it is, and open up to people knowing thats ok.
I want to completely depend on God for all that I need. I want to have a relationship with Him in that I go to Him for all decisions and are able to know what He wants me to do.
Thanks so much everyone for continuing to pray and support me... it means so much to me to know that I have family and friends back at home behind me. I know that not everyone has that and so I just wanted to make sure everyone knows how thankful I am!
Love you lots